I've spending a lot less time connected to my old friend Cletus, the IV stand. I tend to get antibiotic a few times a day and maybe a transfusion. When these aren't happening, my nurse unhooks me and I'm home free. After spending almost two weeks constantly wired up, it's a strange sensation to be able to hop up and dash to the potty without dragging a mechanized hatrack behind you. I am reminded of Morgan Freeman at the end of Shawshank Redemption, physically needing to ask for permission to go pee even after leaving the prison walls.
Today is my second fever free day. There's been something vaguely unsettling about my post-chemo side effects. The way it was originally explained to me, chemotherapy was akin to surviving Hiroshima. So imagine how pleasantly surprising it's been that so far my worst side effects have been fever and a generally icky feeling. But there's a part of me that wonders, "What if the chemo's not working? What if my body's rejecting it? What if my cancer's a super-duper tough strain?" Then of course, I have to tell myself to shut the hell up.
What I envision these last few days of reduced symptoms has meant is that Zombie Warrior's just making her last few passes through the corpse-laden building she is trying to liberate. She stops every once and a while to dispatch a lingering zombie, maybe one trapped under the remains of its undead comrades that she takes out with one shot to his forehead with her boot planted firmly over his snapping jaws. Or maybe the one stuck in a stairwell, bumping aimlessly into the walls; she'd kick open the door, fire off a round, maybe two, and then be on her way to the next floor. She's relying on her pistol mostly, with a free hand close to her machete. Occaisionally, a civilian dashes by, and she steadies herself as she's learned after too many mistakes. There aren't that many zombies left in the building, but she's not going to stop shooting until she knows for sure the halls are free of the Stupid Leukemic Undead.
Now, how does one progress with the clean up of a formerlly zombie infested building? A skid steer with a bulldozer attachment and a bonfire?
This morning I dreamt about being at the beach with my friends, getting hot dogs and fries at the DQ. Immediately upon waking, I began to fret about the combination of "the tubies" and bathing suits.
Tomorrow is the much anticipated bone marrow biopsy to determine how effectively Zombie Warrior has vanquished the Stupid Leukemic Zombie Cells from my body. It's a pretty darn big deal. The elders from my church are coming to pray over me and anoint me with oil. And no, it's not as cultish as it sounds.
I need all the prayers I can get right now.